DELETED VIDEOS?

Hello there.
I deleted many of my videos for the following reason:
-its creating a "drag"

Honestly, i know what people do when they encounter a new channel/video: check the older videos. I feel that the older videos are not allowing me to gain more subscribers. I've stalked this one YouTuber, and in under four hours, she gained 20-40 subscribers, and yet when I last saw her, she had only 90. To the day I am writing this, she gained triple the amount she had since New Years. When I first saw her, she had fewer subscribers than me and yet she gains more than me. I have been in this PC YouTube community for over 8 months making videos, whilist she only had 3 months and already gained more than double my amount. All it shows me is that, why isnt life fair? Why isnt the older YouTubers standing tall while the newer ones are sinking? Life can be unfair, i understand that, but after putting up over 60 videos, its not an easy thing to do. To conclude everything: I am only deleting videos to please me. Even my new subscribers dont watch all of my videos, so why should i continue to keep them, when no one wants to treasure them?

This paragraph wasn't edited, so it may have flaws, but flaws are what make humans, HUMANS.

<3 Peace out.